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Please indulge me one more time  

Platosgames 102M
2246 posts
12/4/2018 2:56 pm
Please indulge me one more time


He was always the smartest in the class through school. Though he sucked at English. I wrote all his English papers for him, through high school and college. Though with math and science, he was a genius. I remember him telling me how boring Calculus was in high school. I probably told him he was a dick and to shut up.

Even though he was still pretty heavy into drugs, alcohol and partying after college, he landed a great job with Southwest Research. Worked there for over 10 , before the drinking finally got him fired. From there, it was all downhill.

As a brother, we were close as can be up until I was in about the 7th grade. Wasn't long after that we fought a lot, like most brothers do. Except ours were sometimes a little more severe than the typical sibling fight. I've always felt bad about those fights. But he also told me, a few ago, how it embarrassed him cause I was 3 grades behind him. But now, he appreciated all the times I would fight anyone, to defend him. He was my brother.

I didn't always like him, but I always loved him. I found myself avoiding him at times, because of his arrogant and know it all attitude, but I learned a lot from him. I had given up quite a while ago on him ever getting his life together, but he was always my brother.

As I wrote about this weekend, he's been in the SICU since last Thursday night. Kidneys were shut down, liver was way out of whack. Due to seizures, most probably, he wasn't responding to commands or voices. We knew he would never want to live like this, from conversations with him, so we made the decision to pull him off of life support. He lasted for an hour and forty minutes when we took him off life support today. But in the end, his life is over.

You weren't always the best brother, but God knows I wasn't either. I hope you find the peace, that eluded you for the majority of your life. Even in death, you will always be my brother.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 2:58 pm

I thought against posting this...but I couldn't find a way to thank all the people who have responded with kind words. Have sent me comforting messages. Texts, emails. It did make a difference, I'm at peace with our decision and our loss. You are a great group of people on here, and I'm happy to call some of you friends. And it's a joy to interact with all of you.

Peace.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Tmptrzz 61F  
107039 posts
12/4/2018 3:00 pm

I am so very sorry for your loss my friend but he is now in a better place no more pain and no more suffering. May he rest in peace, and you will always have him with you in your heart..

Seduce the mind and see what a wonderful adventure the body will take you on..


pagancountrygirl 66F
6466 posts
12/4/2018 3:17 pm

Remember the good times you had together.
Thinking of you and your family.

Pagan
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positively4you 74F  
4605 posts
12/4/2018 3:23 pm

So sorry for your pain now. He is no longer tormented. Hopefully you and you Mother can find some peace with this eventually. Hugs for you.


Naughtypursuit 56F  
2766 posts
12/4/2018 3:36 pm

I think the decision brought him the peace he couldnt find in life. Thoughts and prayers are with you and yours...big hug


pocogato12 71F  
37235 posts
12/4/2018 3:40 pm

You will always remember the fun times, the challenges, and that this was the very best fight he lost. It was a kindness to let him go gently to another light. Be at peace with the decision-it was honest

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redrockrascal 65M
23580 posts
12/4/2018 4:06 pm

Hang in there P, been there with my brother and the friend I mentioned.

When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro.

The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.


SeaGirlFL 60F
9220 posts
12/4/2018 4:45 pm

I am so sorry.

Sending hugs.

I hope you are all able to find peace and celebrate the joys he brought to your lives.

Thank you for trusting us enough to share his story.

"Sometimes the most productive thing you can do is relax." – Mark Black


CampoGirl 57F
43434 posts
12/4/2018 4:49 pm

Im so sorry for your loss. your family is in my prayers... stories like this... help others stay clean. Im one of them... his life wasnt wasted. Some of us just get lost sometimes.. Im done. I dont want to end up in the ground over it. HUGSSS

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Paulxx001 67M
22642 posts
12/4/2018 6:02 pm

Sorry for your loss. As one who also has a brother, I can relate. May you find the peace you seek.


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:33 pm

    Quoting  :

You're a great friend. And yeah..send them Mom's way. She's gonna be a up and down situation for months to come I'm sure.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:34 pm

    Quoting Tmptrzz:
    I am so very sorry for your loss my friend but he is now in a better place no more pain and no more suffering. May he rest in peace, and you will always have him with you in your heart..
Thanks Trzz. And yeah it will. anyone who's been close to me is never really gone. He needed some peace . he really did

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:36 pm

    Quoting pagancountrygirl:
    Remember the good times you had together.
    Thinking of you and your family.
Thanks pagan. It really does come down to family. From an early age till now, for me it's the most important thing in the world. Everything else is just noise.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:37 pm

    Quoting positively4you:
    So sorry for your pain now. He is no longer tormented. Hopefully you and you Mother can find some peace with this eventually. Hugs for you.
Thank you. He was a tormented soul. Hopefully this brings him to a place of peace.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:48 pm

    Quoting  :

Thanks Loops. It's always hard burying family. But you're right the demons were eating him alive. And now that's gone.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:51 pm

    Quoting  :

I have been sent many messages, calls and texts, from people on here and people just from my life. You're one i would call a friend. So thanks for all you have said.

I think he's finally at peace.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:52 pm

    Quoting Naughtypursuit:
    I think the decision brought him the peace he couldnt find in life. Thoughts and prayers are with you and yours...big hug
I think so too...Thank you for the prayers and for the hug.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:53 pm

    Quoting  :

thanks Jack

It's about the same thing I said to him as he went. Rest in peace.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:56 pm

    Quoting pocogato12:
    You will always remember the fun times, the challenges, and that this was the very best fight he lost. It was a kindness to let him go gently to another light. Be at peace with the decision-it was honest
You know..i've gotten older, I'm sure slower. But if I could have fought this one for him...I'd have done it to the end. I think , in the end, it was the best thing I could do to let him fight this one for himself.

I'll battle with it for a while, but it was the best decision. Thanks Gato.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 6:57 pm

    Quoting redrockrascal:
    Hang in there P, been there with my brother and the friend I mentioned.
Thanks Red...I'll get through it. It's amazing what we can live through.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 7:00 pm

    Quoting  :

Exactly...even when I "hated" him the most. I'd have still fought to the death to defend him. In the end, though, I couldn't defend him from himself.

But he was at peace. He died with no pain, I hope I can go the same some day. Just not today...

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 7:02 pm

    Quoting  :

Thanks Lala...that means a lot. And yeah, it looks like his wake will be our early family Christmas get together. But it will be remembered as his last Christmas with us...so . We'll celebrate his life and the good times.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 7:04 pm

    Quoting SeaGirlFL:
    I am so sorry.

    Sending hugs.

    I hope you are all able to find peace and celebrate the joys he brought to your lives.

    Thank you for trusting us enough to share his story.
I feel like I'm woefully inadequate to share his story. He was a complicated soul. Thank you so much for all of your kind words and support.

We will find our peace. I was raised by some great parents, and now it's my turn to help her through the turmoil.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 7:07 pm

    Quoting CampoGirl:
    Im so sorry for your loss. your family is in my prayers... stories like this... help others stay clean. Im one of them... his life wasnt wasted. Some of us just get lost sometimes.. Im done. I dont want to end up in the ground over it. HUGSSS
Thanks Campos, and you're right. I've read enough of your blog to understand the battles you fight. Stay strong, live and enjoy life. No matter how bad it can get at times, it can always get better. And it certainly beats the hell out of the alternative.

It's just another day tomorrow...live it clean and strong.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 7:08 pm

    Quoting  :

Thank you so much. .

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 7:10 pm

    Quoting  :

You know , there was a time when I was a "religious" person. Now, I'd call myself more spiritually ..I dont' discount everything I've learned over the years, just don't follow any single doctrine.

That said....I agree unilaterally with what you said.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 7:11 pm

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    Sorry for your loss. As one who also has a brother, I can relate. May you find the peace you seek.
Thanks Paul. It is harder than i imagined losing a brother could be.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/4/2018 7:12 pm

    Quoting  :

You know at times we think we're alone...but the line...No man is an island, really speaks the truth.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


yesmamallthetime 56F  
11278 posts
12/4/2018 11:05 pm

These things are never easy. It can be said that one can take comfort in knowing someone's suffering has ended. You and your Mom and family are in my thoughts. May your brother finally find peace. Hugs.

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FMAOPLS 70F
27112 posts
12/5/2018 12:26 am

I can't imagine saying the final Goodbye to a sibling. I hope he has found peace. I hope you will, too.

My condolences.

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Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/5/2018 5:08 am

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Thanks, I think so too. He wouldn't have wanted to live in the state he was in. Thanks for the thoughts and prayers.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/5/2018 5:09 am

    Quoting yesmamallthetime:
    These things are never easy. It can be said that one can take comfort in knowing someone's suffering has ended. You and your Mom and family are in my thoughts. May your brother finally find peace. Hugs.
Thanks for the thoughts . I think this was the only way he was going to find peace.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/5/2018 5:11 am

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Thanks for the thoughts and prayers Joy. Mom seems to be handling it as best as could be expected. She's a tough ole country woman, so I'm sure she'll deal with the pain.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


missthee 58F  
4511 posts
12/5/2018 8:45 am

So sorry to hear this. May he rest in peace.

Hold on to the good memories !!!


TicklePlease 56F  
13851 posts
12/5/2018 12:12 pm

Awwww P, that's sad to read. My thoughts are with you and your family too.


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/5/2018 6:13 pm

    Quoting missthee:
    So sorry to hear this. May he rest in peace.

    Hold on to the good memories !!!
Thanks...I think he was tired of this life for quite a while.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


Platosgames 102M
3189 posts
12/5/2018 6:14 pm

    Quoting TicklePlease:
    Awwww P, that's sad to read. My thoughts are with you and your family too.
Thanks Tickle....We're pushing through.

" I refuse to belong to any organization that would accept me as a member" Groucho Marx


thebigone696965 35M
20 posts
12/31/2018 12:48 pm

nice


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