Beat It  

EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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12/3/2019 12:23 pm
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I Will Survive
Grace
Bad Bad Leroy Brown
The Logical Song
Hotel California
Stuck In the Middle with You
I39m a Believer
Bohemian Rhapsody
How to Forget
Suspicious Minds
The Joker
Killing Me Softly with His Song
You Dont Bring Me Flowers
Crazy Train
Change The World
Power of Love
Sweet Dreams are Made of This
Mr Blue Sky
You Matter to Me
Change
Unlonely
Mr Curiosity
Love is Still the Answer
Material World
Have you seen the movie “Number 23” starring Jim Carey? For those who haven't: A mysterious novel, "The Number 23," given to Walter Sparrow by his wife Agatha as a birthday gift, depicts a chilling murder mystery that seems to mirror Walter's life in dark and uncontrollable ways. The life of the book's main character, a brooding detective named Fingerling, is filled with moments that echo Walter's own history. As the world of the book starts to come alive, Walter becomes infected by the most frightening and evocative part of it: Fingerling's obsession with the hidden power of the number 23. This obsession permeates the book and begins to control Walter.

By the end of September, I was consumed by my obsession for figuring out who was hacking me, as well as who wiped my credit history. It got so bad that I ate, slept, and drank while hanging onto my phone. I, seriously, cooked dinner while checking my phone. When I look through my blog posts during this time, I can see how crazy I seemed. Truthfully, PTSD flashbacks were coming at me, and real life trolls attacking me on Instagram, Twitter, and here. (By this time, I hadn't signed into Facebook in a month)

Not only did I have people threatening my daughter with rword and torture, I had H and M on this site fat shaming me; mental health shaming me; and just being all around bullies. Then, I had the hacker changing my emails. No kidding, Eagle sent me at least one email that was changed, and several others mentioned that I didn't sound like me. When they forwarded my emails to them? It wasn't what I said. I knew shit was getting deeper by the moment.

So, I cleared out my follow list on Instagram, and stopped getting on Twitter as much. But, that didn't solve all my problems, Passion was still allowing the bullies here attack me without doing anything about it. It was maddening. The police wouldn't help me, nor the FBI, and the websites themselves just ignored everything I said. I had enough.

I stopped camming and pulled back heavily from campaigning for Andrew Yang for President in 2020 on Twitter. Though, I have kept up the IN PERSON campaigning, because no one can stop me. Do you know how many delivery people and solicitors I've spoken to about Andrew Yang? More than you can imagine, I'm an introvert quasi hermit that relies heavily on deliveries.

No longer camming presented it's own challenges. All those people I was providing fap fodder to since July were real upset and let me know it too. They were angry that I decided to take charge of my own life, and stopped catering to their whims. So, it was difficult to tell who was whom, and the craziness upped itself a notch.

Then, the weirdest thing happened. I got my Supplemental Medicare Insurance (Blue Cross and Blue Shield) booklet in the mail. Then, the same day, I got a UPS package from a Media Company. It was the same Insurance Booklet from Blue Cross and Blue Shield. Except that it was a copy, and not the booklet itself. I emailed the company, and wasn't given an answer as to why they sent it to me. I couldn't find a phone number to the company, but it is based out of Pennsylvania. Curious, huh?

I've mentioned all over the internet that I can't afford to go to the doctor, including on Youtube, Twitter, here, and Instagram. It's a big part of why I started being so outspoken about what's going on in the world. Think about it. I'm on Social Security Disability for Chronic Pain, as well as Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and can't afford to go to the doctor for either. I've made it real clear I'm on Medicare. However, how some Media Company would know that I'm on Blue Cross and Blue Shield is beyond me.

On September 28, I was sleeping when I heard Mainman calling my name. I opened my eyes, and saw a man who looked disheveled and was teetering on his own two feet. I sat up and started asking questions.

It turned out that Mainman went to the house of a friend, and they were sitting and chatting. Out of the blue and from behind, people started beating the crap out of him. When he was down, they literally kicked him. And, you know what? They took a video of the whole thing and put it on Snapchat. Gross, huh?

After getting out of bed to assess his injuries, I made the judgment call to call 911. There was just no way this man didn't need to be seen. He had two black eyes and bruises everywhere. It was obvious, to me, by the way he was speaking that he was also sporting a decent concussion. The Sheriffs, fire, and ambulance arrived within minutes of me calling them. I called Nick to fill him in on what was happening because he was at work.

After evaluating him and giving the story to the police, they decided to transport him. Now, look, I don't drive. I can, if I were to go and get my drivers license again, it's not like it's suspended or anything. I just don't want to because I'm a weirdo who believes more people need to take public transportation. So, guess who rode in the ambulance in the front seat with the adorable fireman? Oh yes, yes I did.

I spent the entire night in the hospital with a man who was beat to hell by supposed ex friends. And, you know what? The two people he knew for sure beat the crap out of him? Jason's sons. You know, the Jason who died from liver failure in this post? Unlonely Ayup.

Now, I was scared. Like more scared than I've ever been living in this neighborhood. I was freaking out, and knew I needed to get away. That's why when [blog Pocogato] said something about coming to visit Maine, I jumped on the chance. Things were just way more freaky deaky than some bullying on the internet where I could turn off the computer and walk away. A real person was physically injured, badly.

I just didn't know who I could trust anymore. It seemed very few people were actually listening to me, and my life both online and in real life was out of control. I knew I needed to talk with people in real life, and not just Nick. Because though I love Nick, he still lives in Conspiracy Paranoia land in many ways, and he wasn't helping me.

And, that's where I'm going to leave it. Nick and I are going to see Joker today, it's Five Dollar Movie day at our local theater and I really want to see it on the Big Screen (and, then, on the small screen over and over and over and over. That's not the point, though.)

Next up: Trip to Maine and evading the hacker.

Beat It

By

Michael Jackson

They told him don't you ever come around here
Don't want to see your face, you better disappear
The fire's in their eyes and their words are really clear
So beat it, just beat it
You better run, you better do what you can
Don't want to see no blood, don't be a macho man
You want to be tough, better do what you can
So beat it, but you want to be bad
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
They're out to get you, better leave while you can
Don't want to be a boy, you want to be a man
You want to stay alive, better do what you can
So beat it, just beat it
You have to show them that you're really not scared
You're playin' with your life, this ain't no truth or dare
They'll kick you, then they beat you,
Then they'll tell you it's fair
So beat it, but you want to be bad
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or who's right
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Michael Jackson

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Apollorising58 59M  
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12/3/2019 12:30 pm

Write on love!{=}

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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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12/3/2019 12:36 pm

Oh, I am.

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LadiesR2B1rst 56M  
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12/3/2019 2:01 pm

I'll admit I was never a Michael Jackson fan but, I did realize he had talent. After reading the lyrics and seeing how they intertwined with your situation I understood more. Another song you may relate to is "Take it to the Limits" by the Eagles. May better times find you !!


Logan0867 52M
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12/3/2019 2:25 pm

Did you ever find out what was up with him getting jumped? *hugs*


rich137 48M
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12/3/2019 2:56 pm

Interested read


EnigmaInitiative replies on 12/4/2019 5:43 pm:
Thanks

PAWAPh 43M
9466 posts
12/3/2019 3:25 pm

Hey, Friend.

*I Want To See The Movie Number 23*

How Was Your Thanksgiving?

Have A Good Night!

Peace, Deb.

Jack


SpunkyMonkeyz58 61M
627 posts
12/3/2019 4:16 pm

Very "nterest'ng and tr'th, and always love yo'r cho'ce of songs Xx Oo Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect Awrooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Meooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooows


author51 56F  
82752 posts
12/4/2019 12:13 am

I love that you share every aspect of your life story with us my friend..My thoughts are always with you and have an ear if you need to talk my friend...xoxo

One can never have enough JOY in their life...


EnigmaInitiative 51F  
2581 posts
12/4/2019 5:42 pm

    Quoting LadiesR2B1rst:
    I'll admit I was never a Michael Jackson fan but, I did realize he had talent. After reading the lyrics and seeing how they intertwined with your situation I understood more. Another song you may relate to is "Take it to the Limits" by the Eagles. May better times find you !!
I have mixed feelings about Michael Jackson that will probably never change, but as you said...he was talented.

Thanks, I love that song!

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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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12/4/2019 5:43 pm

    Quoting Logan0867:
    Did you ever find out what was up with him getting jumped? *hugs*
We only have conjecture at this point. Hugs

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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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12/4/2019 5:44 pm

    Quoting PAWAPh:
    Hey, Friend.

    *I Want To See The Movie Number 23*

    How Was Your Thanksgiving?

    Have A Good Night!

    Peace, Deb.

    Jack


Hey Jack,

It's a good movie, though some of the critics didn't like it. I did.

It was a rollercoaster ride with Mainman breaking his hip the day before. Food was good though.

Happy Wednesday

Peace

Deb

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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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12/4/2019 5:45 pm

    Quoting SpunkyMonkeyz58:
    Very "nterest'ng and tr'th, and always love yo'r cho'ce of songs Xx Oo Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect Awrooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Meooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooows
Thank you my Freeeeeendz

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfect

Awroooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Huggles

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EnigmaInitiative 51F  
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12/4/2019 5:47 pm

    Quoting author51:
    I love that you share every aspect of your life story with us my friend..My thoughts are always with you and have an ear if you need to talk my friend...xoxo
I don't share every aspect, no one wants to hear about how I repeat over and over.

"Fucking cats"

probably should be my catch phrase. Bwahahahahahaha

Thanks Joy, you're an awesome friend. I'll be around later this week. Mainman's mom now needs a procedure. Things are emotionally tough for him, we're managing though. I just can't devote as much time to reading and still be there for him when he wants to talk...ya know?

Happy Wednesday!

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